yellowgreen molding the cerebellum of the mind
so remnants of a heart cant fit into this ryhme

Swift, like the machette
held by a goddess driven by madness.
Capturing sleep in a never ending spiral,
I’ll make sure you’ll sleep forever.
A killer with heightened senses,
damaged past and unfixed wings.
Ancient lovers leaving marks of
bleeding hearts and unsaid things.
Sadden spirit of a “perfect” world,
who gave it all to diabolic ways.
Sharing grief with samuri swords
and spilled blood of a thousand days.
When expecting tables to turn
hope to leave without a scratch.
When blackness coil me into itself,
hope the darkness to detach.
Mystical waves of ebony,
glass ran out of sand.
Almost out of the void,
but then its darkness again
-Annason Phothisarath

I dont know why this is happening to me
i hear my heart escaping to where everything is quiet
I wanna go with it
Im in hell’s maze where every turn is evil and useless
I cant find the cheese
cause all i smell is burning flesh
Will the fire start to burn inside me again
to jumpstart my dead heartbeat
The light promises good things for the afterlife
As long as i stay on track
Even though theres no finish line
I cant decide where I’ll end
i cant reverse anything
And i still see a struggling future
I gulp but my throat is still dry
from wasting my breath on what i thought were true
I steered myself the wrong way
and got in an accident on a sign
I continue on barely standing
As darkness wrapped itself around me
trying and tieing knotting itself on my feet
to walk me to the pit of sorrow
Where i claw at my surroundings but i dont have a mountain climbers grip
How did i do this to myself
The answer locks itself inside me
It will unlock when i get through these forbidden illusions
This path is blocked by moving trees
reconstructing the road that isnt on the map
Always rearranging so i must move quickly
but im pinned down by a nail in my shoulder trying to connect the joint
The metal poisoning my blood flow as it oozes out ofn me like a fountain
but it does the opposite of giving my youth
yes, its taking away my life
Im caught inbetween life and death
like a butterfly nonchalantly flying and unexpecting the net of lust
The rattling darkness ringing in my ears again
warning me that its goinbg to attack
If i take my time the venom will consume me
But i must keep going
to the dream that never ends
-Annason Phothisarath

The tightening grip on my brain truly reminds me to be aware
Its tightening like lightening striking the honesty and courage
I have in me to the ground but i stand watching stalling afraid yet
I dont believe in fear but it infected something scary in me that i have to kneel
with my values and look up at the master which is the monster that I’ve become
harnessing a cause to end peace in my head.
Its mission is to destroy me and I fight but losing my balance so
I cant stand tall my senses dull and im unaware with what im thinking even
though im all messed up and tired I value everyday with my loved ones and once
i learn how to control myself it’ll be the apocalypse for the decisions that
i dont make thats forced in me by the will of god
-Annason Phothisarath

In other people’s heads

Dont Break me; I bleed easy,

Careful not to cut too deep.

Too late the blood wont stop,

Forever is how i want to sleep.

Kiss my lips,

it’s poisoned still.

I’m alive in your conscious,

even though Im your buried kill.

Dancing, Laughing

Proding, and poking.

I’ll haunt you forver,

You thought I was joking.

Silence in your mental realm

making your life a living hell.

An insomniac is what you’ll be,

Afraid to sleep afraid to dream.

I want this to stop is what you’ll say

but there is only one way.

To join me in my restless sleep

dont make a sound not even a peep

Just do it the easy way you can

dont look at the gun in your hand

Just pull the trigger and then you’ll see

How fun it is to be like me.

-Annason Phothisarath

Me and my boyfriend saw this tree on halloween you can see our shadows